The longest absence ever..

It has been almost 3 whole months since I have graced you with my presence. I open my blog every few days and just sit. I have a million things that I want to say and stories that I want to tell you about Owen and LIFE! I just have had zero motivation to do it. I don't sleep at night, so after O is in bed I clean and bake and cook and read and put off bedtime until all hours of the night. I have GOT to stop doing this. Although, I don't get much done during the day while Owen is running 90 miles an hour, I need to be worth a crap. After much contemplation, I decided that to kind of gather my thoughts and put my ducks in a row I needed some ME time. So, today I went and had a one hour deep tissue massage. It was honestly the BEST thing I could have done. At first, my mind would not shut off FOREVER. Then I finally just took a deep breath and gave in to some relaxation. It actually did me so much good. I am such a high strung individual and it put things in to perspective for me. I need to do the best that I can and the rest will fall into place. Living the army life is not EASY  by any means. It stresses you out and brings you down. It throws you on a rollercoaster and doesn't let you off until you're puking or red in the face. Although I don't have much patience, I know that by learning to go with the flow of things that I am MUCH BETTER OFF. Don't worry ya'll I am back and in full swing. You will be seeing A LOT more of me. Thank goodness. xoxo